Thursday, October 9, 2014


our little Foxy, 14 years old, went back to doggie heaven on Oct 5.... failing in health for the last few months, she was also blind in one eye.  but she is our foxy.... we love her, and will never forget her.

we miss her, so does maxi......

she was the disciplined sibling, she was the prettiest little australian silky terrier, and forever obedient.
she was healthy till the end few months...........

Sunday, August 10, 2014

a new book

i finished my recent tenure sooner than i had expected.... i am at peace, and i know God is leading me to new horizons.

it is a strange feeling to be able to wake up at any time, without having the alarm going off and egging me to get out of bed to get ready for work..  i can now savour the morning coffee, look out to enjoy the skies (or haze), and some quiet time with God.  bliss!

bent on my retirement from the corporate world, at least not full time anyway, i am being led into the world of education again...... specifically the English Language, my lifelong interest to share this wonderful language to as many people as possible.

so i am doing all my research on the current trends, materials, and resources that are in place today.... and then i will be ready!

P.S.  in memory of Mum ....18 June 2014


Sunday, June 22, 2014

RIP mother

Sunrise :1928. sunset :2014 June 18

Death is a certainty, but we often wish we could choose the date.  Alas, we never can. It always creeps up when u least  expect it to.

Mother had been having health deterioration since last year, but she battled on and had many good days. I thought she would see Jun-Yi get married, but in my heart of hearts, it was a strong hope as I see her wilting, although some days she was so strong, she seemed like she will live to 100.

Grieving is a long process, I still grieve for my father after 20 years. Of course, the pain is much less acute and the good memories are stronger. We have to remind ourselves to be strong and focus on the good memories. I had a bit more time to give mum a better life , to provide her some of the things she loved. But it's never easy to let go of someone you love, no matter when no matter what.

So the lesson here for all is.... Spend time with your loved ones.. Don't say you don't have time, don't postpone... Cos time waits for no man, when its time for your loved one to go, it won't wait for you  to be available.

Today is the second day after the funeral. What do I feel? Flat, listless, but knowing life goes on. I kept playing back the last few days events, asking questions not really expecting answers.  It's like a DVD recorder playing back repeatedly....
Flashes of memories, of mother when she was younger, of recent times.... And I quell the guilt feeling that I should have seen her more often.... I have last seen her on Mothers Day and bought her shoes that she love, bought her favourite Krispy Kreme...and I gave her a good birthday lunch with all her brothers celebrating with her...  I shall hold on to those good times...

goodbye, mother....I know you have gone to a happy place where there is no pain...


Sunday, May 11, 2014

Mother's Day

this day, i remind myself about how blessed i am.  my children are grown up, and well educated, well bred... any parent would love to have as a daughter-in-law... and if they don't think so, they are silly..

so my motherhood is almost complete; but wait, it never is... one never stops worrying about them, their health, their safety, their wellbeing, their relationships, their marriage, their partners, their careers..... and the list goes on.

i think the real test of motherhood, is knowing when it's time to let go.... to allow the children to make their own mistakes, to lead their own lives the way they would like to, to choose their own spouse and partner according to what they feel is right...

the mother has done all the moulding and guiding while children are younger...once they are adults, they take over.... mothers step back and guide from behind, advise when asked, and help when needed... 

that is real motherhood to the end....

Friday, August 23, 2013


I met someone through work who just came back from studies in Switzerland... My teen dream was to study in Switzerland, attracted by pictures of the Alps.  Today, I wonder if I will see Swissland in this lifetime..

I wonder if I will...... So many things that I wonder...

I wonder if I can find....
The perfect pair of shoes
The perfect dress
The perfect companion
A perfect summer in Paris
A perfect summer in UK
The perfect time to do what I have wanted to do for a long time..

Sunday, August 18, 2013

When does it stop?

Sometimes parents wonder if their grown children still love them the same way they did when they were kids. I wouldn't know as I was never close with my mum, but I still miss my dad. I do have a lot of love for my mum but different.. I guess it's the maternal child relationship love. I wonder if all kids move into that phase when they grow up... What a bummer to the mother who was the most important person in the children's lives at one time.. Oh well, life goes on, love moves on..

Saturday, August 17, 2013

love of love or love of money

statistics show that 70% of couples who marry for love will end up in divorce.  those who place more emphasis on status and money have a lower percentage of divorces.. now why is that so?

i think we put our priorities all wrong in this day and age.  my parents' generation would marry for love, or would be match-made - and generally have a lasting marriage; many of whom are happy, while others are amicably together.  the pressures, demands and stresses of today's society creates easy tension and friction between couples.  easy access to extra marital interests are also prevalent.

moral decay is another cause of high divorce rates.

so what do we advise youth of today?  is it more practical to marry for status and money?  after all, chances of a sustaining marriage is not worse than those who marry for love - so why don't one have a marriage where one doesn't have to worry about the next meal on the table; but can spend time planning for holidays and retail therapy...