Wednesday, June 9, 2010

mortality

i heard a long time ago that when someone reaches 45, they will start contemplating mortality. the older they get, the more they will consider their own mortality .... hmm, could well be true.

i attended a good friend's daughter's wedding dinner recently; and at the next table were all the guys whom i used to hang out with - richard wong, richard chan, jason chong...... we were young and vibrant, falling in love was exciting, and singing songs to jason's guitar picking was great.. tearing up and down genting highlands, in those winding roads in his mini cooper was thrilling.
but looking at those time-beaten faces at the wedding, although brought back nostalgia, also reminded me that anyone looking at them, and me for that matter, would never have guessed that we used to be the cool and happening youths of the day..

jason who used to be so cute, charming, with those cheeky eyes, is now a slightly pudgy chinaman :)
and i wouldn't bother too much to describe the rest..
i did miss mark, the other cog in the wheel - he passed away recently, at such a young age..

i guess at some point, all of us contemplate the end - i just pray that mine will be fast and swift, no burden to anyone, and that i would have got all my matters in order...

Sunday, June 6, 2010

whose right is right?

there is right and there is wrong... but there are many rights that are actually, and many wrongs that are really right..

it really depends on which side of the fence you are looking at, isn't it?

one man's meat is another man's poison - what's right to one may be totally wrong to another. that's why spouses argue, because each believes the other is wrong.. but a third party may see it quite differently, or maybe the third party sees it from both sides and feels there is no right or wrong - merely which one has the stronger push..

so am i always right? no, not always, just usually :)

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

a long long time ago

 a long time ago, an 18 year old girl dreamt of working and living in UK, although she had never been there except for photos and TV. she researched ways to get over there to work or study - but she had no money for studies, and immigration laws then didn't allow work permit to a young girl without a professional degree. opportunity came when an englishman proposed, but there was no chemistry, no attraction for her - you see, at 18, her priority was still Love! over ambition.

she fell in love with another englishman, but she never did get a chance to realise her dream, because he dumped her.

and so, UK continued to be this charming, mystical, country that seemed to be so out of reach.  her first trip to UK at 28 realised all the images she had in her mind, and UK was exactly what she envisaged it to be - magical, mystical.... and still is to her..